School

School is gay

well, not the school so much as the powers-to-be who decide the regulations of financial aid.
First off, how they calculate financial aid is just dumb.
They look merely at one's annual income, household worth, and car value and that's it. Not ya know, if someone has bills to pay or something such as debt. They told me my family makes too much money to get the financial aid I NEED to pay for school. I simply cannot afford 500.oo payments monthly. It is just unreal for them to expect me to pay that every 30 days, and buy books that are extremely overpriced, and buy supplies, and pay for my car.

OTHER THAN THAT

If music weren't invented I'd probably have to kill myself.
But I cannot dwell on the negativity Life can give me.

Mr. D

Dear Sir-

The effect you hold over me is completely infathomably strong.

I barely know you as a human being, yet you've captured me body and soul.
and I completely detest admitting this, due to my independence
but there it is.
and I really doubt you have any idea as to the degree of this hold.
I am embarrassed to even admit this, but I cannot deny myself.
Here I am for the first time having feelings more than friendship to another
and there you are, not recognizing and going off with others, claiming its nothing serious.
But, in all honesty, can I truly blame you?
I don't find a plausible reason for my anger towards you but its exists nonetheless.
and the fact that you smoke is absolutely revolting to me.
I know the lesson to be learned here, I'm just not done fuming yet.
this is exactly why I avoid love.
too fucking ridiculous.
I need something to motivate me to move on from you, Sir D.
but finding another you seems an insurmountable task at the moment.
I hope you and ugly are happy.