Thank Heavens for Chopin.

so it's 12:14 and I am sitting here just mellowing out with Mr. chopin in my ears-could a moment be any more sentient, calm, and simple? I doubt it.
I love this time of night, for it is when I reflect on my day and my various choices I made today. For instance, a certain someone whom I once dated who now thinks we're BFF's (even though I really dont feel that way) IM'd me twice within one hour to ask me weirdo questions, and to allude to us getting together again, even though I've made it explicitly clear that will not happen. Why is he so clingy? Am I velcro?
ugh, it was just not my cup of tea tonight, especially after having a moment in class with Clark today. OK, well it really wasn't a "moment" perse, but our eyes did meet for like 4 seconds (mad long) and it was quite lovely. I then turned to pay attention, and I could still sense him looking at me. (however, this could have been to figure out why I was stealing glances at him ALL class, and trying to get into his conversations..the latter part didn't work so much) But that's what happened.
Then there is the forbidden fruit (although in reality, he's probably a wiser choice than Clark because I at least know forbidden fruit is gay). I kind of have a crush in him as well, and I poked him a couple times on facebook to get his attention and then perhaps to follow up with an e-mail along the lines of "hey, I noticed you keep poking me, why is that?"

...........well that's what I would do.
But not forbidden fruit, No. he just like poked me back twice then stopped. it was disheartening, lol. Perhaps this is a sign that I really need to get over myself and just talk to him (he works at the Shaw's near me).
My Tanglewood auditions is a month away. I am KIND of freaking out, as it approcahes, and my audition piece is like no where near where it should be. And then class keeps interfering with my practicing, as does work. It's a problem, and it's one I'm tackling head-on, and despite being all nervous I am really pumped.
Speaking of work, I cannot open an effing Gap Card to save my life. lol it's a good thing I'll be leaving soon because otherwise I think my boss might fire me. It's BANANAS! I'm like the one fool there who cannot open a card (perhaps it's because I really just am very lackadaisical about opening one anyway). I will be sad to leave because I was just getting to know one lady who works there and she is quite fun. we even jokingly planned a salsa dance party.
another thought about romance- if a certain human being would just graduate already and move up to Massachusetts, then my problems would be solved. He and I would be so great for each other.