What is going on?

Seriously. Today, well tonight I log on to facebook to see that Ms. Derman invited Ms. Arruda to a party. Instantly I got jealous and upset.
which is silly...
I graduated from high school two years ago! why am I holding on to these feelings and opinions of people I haven't even seen in two years? WHY?
then I did some creepin and landed on Nick Drew's page, and became depressed. He was always everything that I wanted to be; good looking, intelligent, witty, fearless, moneyed, popular, blah blah blah. To this day I still think to my self, "Jesus, why can't you be like him?"
Why is what I do not good enough for me?
I got another poke back from Shaw's boy today. Should I poke him back, or just approach him like a normal human being?
by now he MUSt be aware that I'm into him (unless he's like really obtuse, which would be a HUGE shame, and would solve the problem without doubt)
now my computer is mkaing this unfamiliar humming noise.
great.
lovely.
and everyone is out partyin except me.
this is kind of bad but my rant here made me think "what would an emo do?"
...I think we all know what would happen in that scenario. It was morbid, yet it made me laugh. Thank-you emo children for being ridiculous and making me feel better about myself.